Just sorting thoughts:
- A large chunk of my energy has, historically, gone into crisis management
- Without the need for crisis management, I have excess energy that leaves me feeling that I am not fully engaged (ennui is how it has presented)
- If I use the energy toward some positive thing, I may feel less ennui.
Sounds like I should be pushing more toward positive ends, like leveraging other income sources to move me toward eventual freedom from standard work behaviors. Y’know — toward making the life I want instead of what is dished out by a business world that treats me as a resource.
*waits a moment*
Right, then. That’s the plan. Keep the projects going, work with more focus on the writing and woodworks. Assess the ennui again next week and see what has changed.