I have recognized my standard pattern of behavior, adjusted for my current, happier circumstances. I have been saying, frequently, “I can’t perform [action that would make me happy] because I am [too tired / too busy / bound by duties / being eaten by ducks]”
Well. Without any self-flagellation or whinging, I think I’ll just see if I can act to change the behavior. Today. Even if just for ten minutes.
No angsting before or after, just because it’s fun to challenge myself.
Edit: Did it. Gave me cookies for a reward.